Wednesday, 27 September 2017

Update

I can't quite believe we're almost into October now - not too sure where the months have gone!

I've been pretty quiet generally since my last post on here. Our beloved rescue dog, Amber was starting her final struggle around this time. At the beginning of July she collapsed and couldn't get up, and we had to make the saddest decision, to have her put to sleep.

I knew it was the only thing to do - one last thing we actually could do for her - and, having watched her become progressively weaker over the previous months, it wasn't unexpected. But that didn't make it any easier after the event.

I didn't realise how much it would affect me, and, of course, spent most time, with hubby, making sure my two daughters were OK. It was only last week that I realised that I hadn't actually created anything since her death, and I hadn't even cared!

So! Last week I resolved to start up my lessons again on the Awake Course! I've been revisiting old lessons and also taking new lessons, and learning and relearning various techniques! That in turn has inspired me to start creating again.

I've connected with a whole group of  new people, both within the course group and within another course that I took over the summer holidays, that was entirely unrelated to practising my art! These lovely people are rebuilding my faith in humanity day by day and helping me to look beyond the harm done to my family by the Roman Catholic Church and certain clergy in particular. My faith remains strong, of course, and leads me in standing up for what is right and just and speaking out against what is wrong. Being amongst others now who understand this compelling part of life is a breath of fresh air!

Anyway, I'm moving forward with my art as well, and am thinking there may be a need for a new art blog for me in the near future! The new Twitter page for my art has been started; it's locked down at present whilst I beautify it, and get things tied together.

The plans I have are being brought to fruition alongside my commitment to family members, one with special needs, and who are keeping me very busy at present! It feels slow, but I know everything will come in its own good time.

I'm hoping to make some plans for Advent art for the His Kingdom Come Facebook Group, and also to contribute soon to the Drops of Faith Art Ministries - the ladies there are doing such good work, alongside others in the community and it's the kind of work that the RCC in the UK, especially locally, here in Thanet, should involve itself in.

So there we have it! A little update about what's been happening here! Oh! Did I mention I've been assisting my Mother in the self-publishing of her latest book? It will be available on Amazon any day now and is a Tribute to a man who has played a big part in the life of our family and so many others! The next book will be a collaboration with....ME! We have a story to tell and so many experiences to share; important work that will probably take quite some time to bring to publication, but will be so very worthwhile when complete. Some things are just too important to allow them to be silenced!

Thank you to everyone for the support I've received and that my family has received! We appreciate it!
Bernie x

Saturday, 17 June 2017

Refuge

"The Lord will rescue his servants; no one who takes refuge in him will be condemned." Ps. 34:22
TFL!
Bernie x




Wednesday, 7 June 2017

Rachel

Rachel
Continuing with Women of the Bible pieces, this was inspired by the story of Rachel and Leah in Genesis 29.

Jacob worked for 7 years for Laban, with the promise of marrying Rachel after that time. When the time came around for him to marry Rachel, Laban tricked him into marrying Leah, using the excuse that a younger child could not be married before the first born. As Jacob loved Rachel, he agreed to work another 7 years and was rewarded with marriage to Rachel.

My piece is imagining Rachel, ready to be married to Jacob. She is dressed in her wedding veil and her face at first glance looks full of beauty and contentment.

But look longer at her expression and it seems not quite so content. She has just found out that she is not yet to be married to Jacob; she must wait and watch her older sister marry first. Does she know her father's plan, or does she expect Jacob to marry only one woman? We can't know how the detail played out, and can only imagine how Rachel must have felt.
TFL!
Bernie x


Thursday, 1 June 2017

Naomi

Naomi

Carrying on with Women of the Bible.

During a time of famine, Naomi's husband decided they should emigrate to another land, and so went from Judah to the highlands of Moab. Leaving her homeland must have been such a sacrifice for Naomi as Moab was so heathen in its ways.

Nothing but misfortune found Naomi and her family when they had moved. Her sons both married women of Moab, rather than Hebrew women, rather than support their mother. Then her husband died, leaving her a widow in a land of idolaters. Naomi loses all heart to live on in a foreign land. Her heart was broken, her spirit was broken, and she felt God had abandoned her. She realised she must return to her native land of Bethlehem.
TFL!
Bernie x




Thursday, 4 May 2017

Sapphira

Sapphira
This piece is based on a 'story' from Acts about Ananias and his wife, Sapphira.

Ananias and Sapphira sold their property in order to contribute to the Apostles' fund for the poor. But rather than hand over every penny, they kept some back for themselves, saying though, that they were giving all the proceeds. Peter is aware of what they have done, exposes them, and both are struck down, dead.

At first, the initial reaction might be 'how could you?' and 'why?' Then I read a commentary about this that softened the initial perception of their actions. They so much wanted to be part of that early group of faithful, but they just couldn't bring themselves to give up every last penny of the proceeds from the property sale. They wanted a safety net for themselves.

I think many of us could sympathise with this kind of outlook!

So, my piece is of Sapphira. She holds a bottle of perfume, to represent that which she could not give up. She is in darkness, as she knows in her heart that what she and her husband are doing is wrong. She perhaps looks confident at first glance - nobody will know, all will be well. Yet looking closely at her face, she betrays just a shadow of that doubt within.
TFL!
Bernie x


Saturday, 29 April 2017

Anna

Anna
This morning I carried on reading the Book of Tobit - I'd stopped about 2/3 of the way through as I'd been so inspired to create some art lol! I also read more of the other two books I've been reading all week. Again, although on completely different subjects and having no connection to each other, the places I was at in my reading both covered the same theme - waiting.

The times when we can't control what's happening, eg waiting for test results about an illness, waiting to hear from others we care about. At times like these we can do nothing but wait. It can feel like an emptiness. But this waiting can still be a service; a time of prayer, doing what we're supposed to be doing at that time.

In the Book of Tobit, Anna is Tobit's wife and the mother of Tobias. Her son leaves for a far off place and she is distraught. The Book describes how every day she went to the road Tobias had taken out of town and waited for him to return. As he was delayed in returning, due to getting married, she must have become more and more fraught with worry. But all she could do was wait. Just imagine the joy, though, when her son finally returned!

So this piece is how I imagine Anna. Sitting at the roadside all day long, every day, simply waiting to once more see her son. She worries and can't look after herself - she weeps and doesn't sleep all night - but she waits.
TFL! 
Bernie x


Wednesday, 26 April 2017

Sarah

Sarah

I tried something different today! Having prayed for inspiration, I opened my Bible at a random page. It fell to the Book of Tobit - not a Book I was overly familiar with! The 'story' within the Book is quite compelling!

Sarah, the woman in my piece, marries Tobit's son, Tobias. Sarah has been married 7 times before but was possessed by a demon, which killed each man who tried to get near her on their wedding nights.

When Sarah was told she was to marry Tobias, she must have been so fearful in case the same happened again - the events had had public as well as private implications for the family.

My piece is my imagining how Sarah must have felt through those times of grief, shame and sadness; she must have felt demorialised and perhaps resentful, wondering how and where this would all end. Yet there is a small glimmer of anxious hope when she sees Tobias arrive...
TFL!
Bernie x